Jealousy

I feel guilty because instead na I'm the one na ngwowork, it's the other way around
i really don't like her to work but she insist so...
what can i do..? mas like ko na I'm the one working
yet i can't blame her, she's more responsible and intelligent than me,,
she has her own future and for now, i don't have...
i just want to work for her, for our own world..
yet it did not happen..


so, i let her work where she wants to work here at la union,,
she emailed some company and she was interviewed
as expected, she was hired,,

I'd just support her on her work
because i believe that's the best i can do for now,,
lalo na't I'm just waiting for my work to come..

yet, i can't control myself,
the jealousy inside
that everytime she work
new faces and persons she will meet
and that, i'm jealous,,
instead of me, it's them ang kasama nia..

we've talked about it and somehow, it fixed the problem
yet it shocked me when her student called her last saturday,,
I'm angry and wonder, why her student call her..?
it's just a week after she was employed..? so we fight again,,,
i feel guilty yet i don't want her to be tolerated, being close to somebody..
so i cried hard because I'm afraid she will leave me behind..

i just prayed that everything will be ok....