Freedom

Almost everybody wants to have their freedom
to do the things they want to do,
to run their lives with their own way,
to buy the things they want to buy
and to decide things on their own
 
Freedom is creating your own destiny
to build and mold your own life,
to decide with your own or not,
to face the consequences of your decision or not
and to be yourself or not...

It's YOU who runs your life..
Everything begins with you...

Jealousy

I feel guilty because instead na I'm the one na ngwowork, it's the other way around
i really don't like her to work but she insist so...
what can i do..? mas like ko na I'm the one working
yet i can't blame her, she's more responsible and intelligent than me,,
she has her own future and for now, i don't have...
i just want to work for her, for our own world..
yet it did not happen..


so, i let her work where she wants to work here at la union,,
she emailed some company and she was interviewed
as expected, she was hired,,

I'd just support her on her work
because i believe that's the best i can do for now,,
lalo na't I'm just waiting for my work to come..

yet, i can't control myself,
the jealousy inside
that everytime she work
new faces and persons she will meet
and that, i'm jealous,,
instead of me, it's them ang kasama nia..

we've talked about it and somehow, it fixed the problem
yet it shocked me when her student called her last saturday,,
I'm angry and wonder, why her student call her..?
it's just a week after she was employed..? so we fight again,,,
i feel guilty yet i don't want her to be tolerated, being close to somebody..
so i cried hard because I'm afraid she will leave me behind..

i just prayed that everything will be ok....

Self Bondage

It's easy for a person to meet new individuals in their own parameters
maybe in their working place, their own neighborhoods
or maybe in their "cyber-world" through social networking site..
and yet it's hard to know a person whose life is unreadable, locked
and whose life exist only in his/her own world,
having own "cyber-world" yet limited information
and no interest of expressing his/her own life
being shy and don't have a self confidence at all..

Birthday of Mine

It's good to know the difference
between having the girl you love and having no one
to be with the girl you love and being alone
to eat with your girl and to eat alone

everything has a difference
   being empty when you are loveless
and being filled with love when you find one,,
    being serious when you eat alone
and enjoy eating when you have a partner to eat with
    being happy when your family celebrates your birthday
and being wonderful having birthday with your true love,,,

therefore, i want others to know
that even if i don't have balloons to play with,
i don't have a candles to blow
and i didn't receive gifts
I still happy and feel wonderful
having a girlfriend who loves me so much
and brought me cake for my birthday

Again, thank you very much for your love with me..
and i want you to know that you made my birthday the best..
I will love you always until my last breath,,

emote to the max....

You know how i feel when you don't answer my text?
Don't know if you wanted me to fear on you
just wanted to show me how small i am to you?

minsan di ko maiwasan to feel this hate in my heart
y am i feeling this hurt when all i wanted was to love you
i never had bad intentions of feeling that way
you know am trying to get by with the pain,
the hurt and misery am going through

but thanks God, he's pouring strength on me
at least am striving somehow

please don't be so insensitive of my feelings
or will i believe that i never have had a mark in your heart?
but no, am trying not to be convinced because it will hurt the most
hope this time you will give me this very chance to get myself back..

.. --, ..


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